Anthony Starr Ft J-mau l: About you

So I rarely even do these little like support things.

Anywho , this is one of my good friends Anthony , He's a up n` coming rapper.

I think people should get into his music its different.

And you really don't see that from rappers.

So here's one of his songs he did with a homeboy of his Jmaul.

http://limelinx.com/files/cef787dbfbf185da72596ed0dad5afa2 - download it ; throw it to friends , get it out .

you can also follow him on twitter @ant_starr

or add him on the myspace for more music ; @ www.myspace.com/astarofficialpage

well , im out for now , until next time ;

lala.

life is hard. but push thru it.

Alll my life , I’ve had to fend for myself. You know I’m use to a lot of shit I’ve been through. I’ve been raising myself since my grandmother passed away. I lost one of my best friend to cancer , and it still is the hardest thing I go thru. I wake up everyday with a thought of my gradnmother , grandfather , and my friend Derek , for the simple fact three of the most important people are gone , and I can do anything to bring them back. I’m always the girl that has a smile on her face, the girl that’s always cheering others up. But , since all this shit is going on I’ve just become another hurt person in this fucked up society. There’s thing that’ve happened to me that I can’t even get out of my mind. The shit I’ve been thru at the ages of 12-17 are crazy , and I keep myself with my head lifted. But , it does tend to fall .

I’ve never had the best relationship with my father , and I told myself I promised to my grandmother I’d work on it, and you know were the relationship is , the same place it’s been before she passed away my 6th grade year. I promise people everything , but I always fall back on the things I promise, I promise ill do this , and I promise I’ll do that , but I never do them. Sorta makes me feel sorry for myself , becuz why should I make promise’s that I will not keep? People are so shocked when they meet me , and know a little about me , the shit I’ve been thru , the bullying I went thru becuz I’m not like everyone else . The fact I may not be a skinny as everyone or , the fact that I have things they lack. I never once rubbed things I had in peoples faces , but people always wanna rub shit in mine. You know what im saying?

If you’re reading this I don’t expect anyone to feel sorry for me , I don’t expect you to have pitty for me . That jus makes shit so much more worse , I’m human I learn from shit I’ve been thru , I’m one of the strongest people I know , and I don’t say that becuz its me , I say it because of what I’ve been thru.

I laugh when people pitty me , they say they feel sorry for me , they tell me you know , you`ll nevr amount to much , and as much as I don’t believe it I sorta do , but im gonna prove everyone wrong believe me when I tell you this , I will make everyone shock , everyone who doubted me , everyone who told me I was going to be shit , just watch .

I’ll prove you , and even myself wrong.

--Lala

Love - So many definitons , but is everyone`s answer correct?

so I`m sitting here.

like what the hell does love mean?

Does being inlove with someone give you a correct definiton?

Or is love , only for married people 2wo answer?

I`ve asked my self constantly if I knew was "Love" is

But i`ve came up with nothing.

I`ve been in love ,

I gave a dude my heart.

I also thoughth that he wasn`t gonna crush it , but

he did.

So now I wanna know.

Was I really inlove?

I can`t even give you a complete definiton,

but does love have no definiton?

Is any answer from any person responding to the question I asked.

The correct definition?

If I can`t evn give you a defintion.

Does that mean I was really inlove?

Or was I strongly in like?

Of course Love -- Is geuine.

Its shared all over the world.

TWO people share love.

There hearts were once seperated,

but by the grace of god he stich`d there hearts into one.

So I guess my answer is this.

Were born with one heart right?

Do we only have half a heart?

Until we find that right one.

Since everyone is destined to find someone for them.

Is that person the other piece of our heart?

Comment me and lemme know what you def of love is.

Maybe every single answer is correct.

prolly soo.

Why?

okay.

This jus urks the hell out of me.

Why do boys act like girls that aren`t toothpick`d size are good enuff?

I`m not downin` skinny girls cus some of my bestfriends that i adore are small.

But I mean , why do most magazines since hell forever.

make it seem that only small size`d people r gonna be happy.

Like I don`t understand that at all.

It`s so sad when I`ve talk`d to dudes.

"If only you were smaller"

like wtf, don`t tell me i`m insecure.

becus honestly it`s you becuse your afraid too have me as your chick or w.e

Shit like this jus pisses me off.

But , i`m not trippin` and noone else should either.

fuckk everyone has a soulmate.

they may not come around right when you want them.

But ,

they`ll be there sooner than later.

Honestly.

I don`t want too fall inlove.

Unless i know the dudesi s really there for me.

not for jus certain things.

I want a dude too love me for me.

not give a fuck what a size i wear.

or how i look at certain times.

hell , love is soo fucking confusing,

media is a pain 2.

I wonder if it`d be different if they had more plus size models modeling in magazines ,

then regular size`d models.

like 50/50

would society be different?

Picturee of me from trip 2 orlando

i got bored.

Shouts too my LV ENT fambam!

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Soo!

I bassically , jus took random ass pics of myself.

Becus --IDK lmaoo.

But I hadda nice little vacation,

I`m actually ready to go too school.

Surprisingly crazy right?

Mayb its just becus I`mma senior.

andd-- school`s almost overr.

But yah , I hope yu guys like the pictures.

Comments ; which outfit did u like better.

well -- time too goo shoppin` with my mom befor escuela starts!

ilyyall.

Lala`s out [=

Sneakers I reccomend , 1st round

Any one that know`sz me.

Know`sz I pretty much adore kicks

I love love love !

Nike Dunksz , Blazers , Jordans -- a couple .

But I`m really only messin` with Nikes-- mostly.

--THESE! I`m looking for , but I have yet found em.

I`m not too big of a fan on Aeroflights , but the colors.

I adore !

--Honestly.. what do I see in these Air Digs.

I don`t know , but Im into bright ass color`d kicks.

AND these appeal`d too me,but when I seen em in the store.

They didn`t stand out as much as they did on sneakerhead.com

--BUY THESE! I bought mine at Finish Line, a few weeks back.

THA whole TRUE FLIGHTS line , are AMAZING,

Hadn`t boughten A pair of jordans since xmas of o7 lol.

but yes , the neon color green , n the pain spallters - bomb buy [-

--I`ve actually thought about buyin these,

I LOVE these Forces.

The metalic , and purple is amazing match , but.

Its a little too much purple.

but I think they`d be worth if u love purple.

--There`s are actually quite old , came out prolly 4 months aqo,

but I`M still looking for these , I may jus have too order em off sneakerhead.

I LOVE LOVE LOVE these 6.O`s , oh the colors , and they look extremly comfortable.

definite buy !

Well , that`s about it for now folks ! Def think these shoes are worth buying, they`re rarely cheap , well not cheap , but compared to 1oo dollar shoes , theses are worth the money !

<3!

i hope my poetry doesn`t get stolen!

But, I Found this poem I wrote in the beginin` of the yeaar.

Uhmm, I can`t reallly explain much , but

I`ve been through alot in my lifetime.

&nd I`m usually a pretty happy person,

But I`m human &nd I do have those days,

When;

I jus wanna be alone.

Soo , I hope my poetry makes you smile.

Atleast realize ,

That I`m far from what everyone thinks.

P E R F E C T.

i looked in the mirror.that dreadful thing.no smiles jus frown.my fragile body so weak , so gone.no need for happiness.joy would never overcome me.i looked at that helpless girl.realizing that girl was me.discusted in myself.i turned around to walk away.but i got pulled back by god.too look over the imperfections.things i couldn`t fix.flawless was somethin` i should be .but not even the prettiest girl was perfection.i`m the girl who can hold a smile.and noone will believe that i`ve been hurt.the flawless world people think i live in.what a fantasy world.not even me ,that wannabe perfect girl.can be flawless like they think.pain is always announced in my body.hurt & frustration taken out on others who don`t deserve it.i stare in that mirror .pain , hate , anger , life .flashing between my eyes.refixing the pieces i then seen .wat they all finally seen.a girl who they consider a perfect life .that girl was finally me.

©-Laura ; 2OO9